~*~Easier said than done~*~

As a person with a very controlling personality, I have been struggling mainly over the past two or three years with the thought of where my life was headed and where I needed to be. I would pray "Lord, I am giving you control over my life, take and do with it as You want" and I would feel relieved for a day, a week, and sometimes even a month...until something went wrong and I, by myself, wanted to and still try to, fix it on my own. The idea of handing God the reigns sounds wonderful, and I know that "He will never leave me nor forsake me" but actually doing it is easier said than done. I want to have peace about college, the degree I am studying and the dreams that I am working towards. And in the deep corners of my heart, I DO have peace. But my controlling personality wants to know how everything is going to end up, but that's not part of life.

~*~"For I know the plans I have for you" -[this is] the Lord's declaration - "plans for [your] welfare, not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. You will call to Me and come and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. You will seek Me and find Me when you search for Me with all your heart. I will be found by you ..." (Jeremiah 29:11-14)~*~

How many times do we go to sit down in a chair, but before sitting we inspect the chair, testing to stability? I, for one never do, I TRUST that that chair is going to do it's job and support me when I sit. The same goes for God though, but with God He will NEVER 'collapse' under the weight of our burdens. We just have to TRUST Him to take it. I have to continuously remind myself of this day in and day out.

~*~"Look, I am the Lord, the God of all flesh. Is anything too difficult for Me?"(Jeremiah 32:27)~*~

A dear friend, and soon to be family member, told me the other night that "God is the one true friend that when He says tell me your worries and let me carry the burden HE MEANS IT." He wants to hear our problems and hear our praises, He wants to heal our pain and rejoice in our success. He is the Ultimate Father, the Bestest Best Friend, and the ONLY ONE that can truly relieve us of our burdens, and He does it willingly. So worrying is really not even necessary. And I say all this in regard to my self. I know this is all true and I believe in His strength and power and I am trying to put a stop to the worrying, and to begin Loving Life and everything it has to offer.

~*~So don't worry, saying, 'What will we eat?' or 'What will we drink?' or 'What will we wear?' For the idolaters eagerly seek all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things will be provided for you. Therefore, don't worry about tomorrow, because tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. (Matthew 6:31-34)~*~

It has been a while, but I AM still here!
I just recently got back from an Amazing trip to Denham Springs, LA. It was a wonderful trip and it was so hard to leave. We (with God's help) finished all that we went to accomplish and more. Our God is amazing and is evident in everything everywhere. I also met some amazing people there and got to see some old friends. It was wonderful to go and spend a week fellowshipping and workin' for the Lord. Sorry for the briefness of the post, I just wanted to say how much fun I had on this trip and how blessed I am to be a part of the Carpenters For Christ group.